it kills me

.... 11:14 and I think I may have seen something I didn't want to see... or maybe I'm reading into things to much.

But I don't know why I keep putting myself threw this with him. Things are so perfect right now.
3 weeks and counting... or am I oblivious?

As I lay, next to him I am happy but then I am hurting inside.
Trust is a big key in a relationship platonic or romantic. If there's no trust, what's the point?

11:18 on my "diary" as he calls it and I'm blank

comfort

Everyone loves to be comfortable around the person they love right?

Well how comfortable it to comfortable?

For me I think its cute when they burp in front of me.
Weird right? Iono I think if u can do that your comfortable around a person.

But farting??? Fuck na! Go outside or to the bathroom for that shit. Lol

Anyways.
Yeah I haven't blogged much.

Supa Savy now has a blog site. Check it out :)
www.supasavyent.tumblr.com

withdraws

Hella withdrawing from smoking and twitter! Lol I think its more of me wanting a cig...
Ugh all for a better me right? smh

40 days & 40 nights of lent. This is going to be the hardest lent ever! Lol

xoxo
-tay

2am

2 am in california on the weekend is an eventful time.

At 2am they stop serving liquor and you can't buy anymore.
At 2am the clubs let out. You can catch all the fights of the jealous bitchs who were hating on each other.
At 2am that guy you gave your number is blowing up your phone to see if you wanna "kick it"
At 2am the girl you keep callin is ignoring your call cuz you are breaking the "2 day rule"
At 2am you can catch the sideshows in oakland :)

At 2am I am laying in bed. Typing a blog. Wanting to speak my mind and spill my guts. Trying to think of a way to fill this hole that I have. I've been out the past 2 nights looking for a way to fill this hole. Dancing is shockingly not helpin.

At 2:06 am I just realized that the only way I am going to feel this imaginary hole/void, empty feelings is more time.