happy turkey day

haappy turkey day to all you guys!
if you dont celebrate have a great day! be thankful anyways...

xoxo
-tay

stress and insecurities

Yesterday was full of stress and insecurities!
Ughhh now my head is full of decisions that I need to make.

I stress off of things that I can't control. This is a issue for me that I know I need to work on. But breaking habbits is hard.

Yesterday I was mugged by some BZ in court, and then I take me son to see his uncle who he hasn't seen in 2 years and his bitch starts hella drama cuz she insecure! Smh

Ughhh
Why are women so insecure? I mean I'm sure he's givin her a reason to be... no I'm positive [I know for a fact] but seriously I get shit from hella dudes girls who think I have some evil plot to take their man... wtf seriously... I've been threw all that and I don't try to get at any dudes or talk to any dudes if they have a chick. Seriously I know how it feels to have your "homewrecked" and I ain't that female.

Sometimes I think my personality is to strong and that I intimedate women... I don't think I'm the baddest bitch... shit have the time I'm in jeans and a hoodie! I smile to much... iono wtf it is... my friend have even told me I'm kinda intimedating cuz I'm loud and speek powerful... I don't get that cuz I barely understand 8 letter words! Hahaha

Wow! This post was supposed to be on stress aand insecurites and its turned into me trying to figure out what's wrong with me. Lol smh

Off top tho... BLAH!
Lol
Goodbye for now!

xoxo
-tay

VIDEO: ILL DOCTRINE JAYZ, 50 CENT, & BENNIE

I started watching ill doctrine videos two years ago and I must admit... they bring me much joy! I love the one jay did about bill o'riley, I love when jay busts lil raps himself, I love the obama night in harlem... I could go on and on but so far my favorite one in this one...

JAY-Z, 50 cent and BENNIE BEEF


Jay-Z has always said "men lie women lie, numbers don't" andd when he said it at the AMA's its like he pulled the trigger to "the shot heard around the world"... I've been wondering why Jay-Z hasn't responded... he responded to a lamer beef [the jim jones beef]... I guess "outta sight, outta mind" right... but like Jay Smooth said... beenie! Stop making the dis tracks... jay-z don't give a fuck... you fighting with him is like a ant trying to fight a human... you won't win... you'll just get stepped on... don't bite the hand that feeds you... let's face it!! Jay-z is still feeding you... I hope beenie doesn't think that he's gonna sale hella albums like he did when he was with jay-z!

And 50! Omg... lol "magic beef dust" for real 50... just shut up and work on a solid album!

Ughhh
xoxo
-tay

www.illdoctrine.com
www.twitter.com/jsmooth995

slim-30

SLIM 30

i first started taking these pills in ummm febuary... i stopped takin them and then would start again but officially started again on thursday.

these effn pills work! OMG!

this is me in jan:


this is me now: [11/21/09]


You probably can't tell [or maybe its just me] but I dropped four pants sizes! Ughh thinkin about that makes me happy and mad at the sametime.

These are herbal pills, but I feel like I'm on dope when I'm on them. Which sometimes is good cuz I wanna move lol I get cotton mouth... your supposed to drink like 50 oz of water a day taking these pills. But I hate water so I don't. Lol then there are days you don't eat... well I don't... I should... and most of those days where I'm not hungry I force myself to eat! Then there are days where I can eat EVERYTHING I see in sight! The pills run between $55 to $65 depending on if you order them online or not. Ill post locations below... so I recomend the pills... I like em, and I know they work... my friends have also took them. And my ex husbands cousin took em and he lost 81lbs in 7 months. That's what 10 pounds a month? It doesn't sound like a lot! But some people can't loose close to that in a year lol

Maybe ill post my progress... like a pic once a week...
Hmmmm

So yeah, what's everyone doing for thanksgiving?
LEAVE A COMMENT

xoxo
-tay

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i endorse Taylor Swift

okay.... no i dont but she is the perfect example of how "haters" can make you famous.

we all know what happened with her and Kanye, and we all knew it would throw her into SUPER STARDOM, cuz lets face it half of yall didnt know who she was or changed the station if you heard oe of her songs... *raises hand* i did lol

now you see her on SNL, all these commercials, and they are playing her EVERYWHERE... soo

mr.west... please feel free to hate on me all you want! i want my 15 mins of fame! its a recession and i got a kid to feed...

thank you,
tay

lol

heres a little reminder:


hahaha smh @ kanye! always a headline!
no matter wat hes still my 2nd fav rapper...
"sorry kanye but Jay-Z is one of the greatest of all time"

I know this is old news and what not but I just seen one of her commercials and well... yeah...

xoxo
-tay

locked down

someone i really care for got locked up the other night. im feelin kinda down... getting better tho!

cant wait till 3/17/2010 [his release date]
untill then its letters to let him know his friend is here!

*sigh*

i always complained that he came over and slept all the time... now i wish he was right here sleeping.

karma

Wooosers
So 50 sent sold 150,000 copies of his album so far! Less than Rick Ross' last albm the first week it was released.
Is it karma?

We all know that 50 cent KILLLLLLSSS careers... example Ja Rule and even The Game cuz let's face it... ever since the game and 50's beef the game ain't been on point.

So why 150,000 copies? I would say karma BUT officer ricky's last project "Triple C's" only sold 4,000... you figure a man with such big stature and presence as officer Ricky would know that album was a mistake... trying to pulla G-Unit type of move. Phssst blah!

So I think 50 needs to stop with the beef for a min and focus on getting his hype back up and work on his endorsments before they drop him. Being on of the richest rappers off just beef and endorsments don't say ish to me... we need a dope album like the first one...

But I love this song and video!

Yo! 50 still hella buff but he look better toned down huh? Lol

Omg! Twilight! *sigh* it comes out today! I'm hella excited. I prolly won't see it in theaters for a while cuz I know its finna be sold out for a while! But if you haven't seen the first one do so... its a great movie! The hype is well worth it

xoxo
-tay

P.S y'all like the new page? Layout? Graphix? Sheesh! I love it... leave a coment

tay and gabby show

video phone: beyonce ft lady gaga

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not even YOU could afford me

Yesterday I asked y'all to post a comment on how much you honestly would pay for yourself if you was a barbie or action figure. Kali reasponded & I wube you for it. She said she would be legos! Very creative!

Kali's comment:
I'm def some legos. Different colors... Different sizes. Sold in different size boxes so you can't give me a $ amount. For a couple bucks I'll throw ya a couple hundred blocks. Your gonna pay extra for the Red Blocks though.


I would be a barbie I would charge some racks for me... I would be life size but anatomicly incorrect [sorry pervs] lol and I would come with real hair and would promote for you! I would also come with a G1 and hella shoes! Lmao

But seriously. Some of us don't really know how much we are worth. Low self-esteem? Or self worth issues? Is there a difference? I think so...

I see self esteem as a feeling that make some people do the lowest things. They probably were told their whole life that they were beautiful untill junior high when puberty hits. Then the kids tease. I know in junior high I got teased because I didn't have the filas or addias jacket and because I was two skinny. But over time I learned my self worth. Even though threw relationships I have been brought down. But I have always known that I am worth more and deserve better.
I think that's what allows me too leave the relationships and allows me to be happy in life.

Anyways....
Yeah... lol
Now I'm stuck on wat to say...
I think I have A.D.D because I was distracted by a thought.
*sigh*

xoxo
-tay

me, chi, & bakugans

how much?

If you coud buy yourself, how much would you pay? honestly?
I'm not talkin bout in a hoe type way but if there was a barbie or action figure for you... how much would you pay?

Please leave a comment and say how much you would pay. Don't leave a cocky comment talkin bout "I'm the shit I wud charge more than anyone cud ever make" okay glad you feel that way but be realiistic.

Ima write a blog tomorrow on self worth. I'm not asking for this info to put anyone down tomorrow. I just want to know.


xoxo
-tay

ummm yea

So this is just another boring blog post. I litteraly woke up a hour and a half ago. Ima start writing my blogs at night so I don't have this problem anymore I can just publish them in my sleep. Lol
Don't wanna let y'all down.

But I'm soooo tired. Was up till 4:30 am trying to work things out with that special someone. Just trying to be cool and come to terms with our WHOLE relationship. The stuff I write about I also go threw. I also practice what I preach. So if I say something on here. I MOST LIKLY goin threw it myself or have went threw it.
I'm hardheaded and stubborn I have to learn the hard way no matter how many heartbreaks I go threw. I'm dumb. Lmao but hey.... its life right?

xoxo
-tay

7

"Everytime I try to leave something keeps pulling me back"
-chingy ft tyreese
"I sware this time is the last time! I'm done"
-anyone in a relationship

They say in a unhealthy relationship the couple will go back to each other an average of 7 times before untimatly breaking up.

Why do we keep going back? People say "cuz I still love em." I've learned that to be untrue. I was with my ex for 5 years. He took me to hell and back. But I kept going back. After our first big break up of two years I always cheated on him. And he continued to do so to me. I kept taking him back because I would think "where would he go?" Or "what about my son?" One guy I was talkin to for 3 years while I was with my ex and he would say "how come you don't leave?" And my answer would be "because I love him".... I loved him but wasn't in love. At times I would fall back in love with him... (ie: me marring him) but within a month I was regreting being back with him and cheated on him. Till I finally left him.

People confuse love with security and often are mistaking love for that false sense of security. I know I did. I know a lot of people continue to go back to unhealty relationships because they do not want to be alone, they don't like sleeping alone etc. But I've learn to find out.... you're never alone. Loneliness is a eff'd up feeling but its a feeling that you can deal with untill you find that person who treats you right.

So when your in a relationship and you keep going back... think it threw and make sure its what you want to do. Sometimes it does work for couples! But now and days people take relationships to a whole new light. So if you want to continue in that cycle of hurt, pain, breaking up, going back go head. But circles are just continuous lines... lines do end somewhere.

positions

"How do you want it?"
I think Tupac said it best. Even though in the song he's talkin about something kinda different, just the thought of him whispering that in my ear turns me on! Ladies?! Am I right? Lmao

This sex post is about POSITIONS! The things that make sex that much better! I know someone who never tried anything but missonary! And I know someone who didn't know what missonary was! Wtf... its the boring position... to me it is. Lol soooo ima list some positions, discribe them, how to do them and if I can find some pix ima post them.
[NON-PRONOGRAPHIC EITHER.... PERV lol]
So let's get started!
*if you are under 18 leave now*

Missonary:
This is the normal position. Girl on her back and the guy is on top.

The twist:
The girl turns to her side and wraps her leg around the guy. Then the guy enters on top or from the side.

Girl on top:
This is the guy on his back and the girl is on top. This is a position that gets the girl to orgasim quicker because it hits the G-Spot.

Cowgirl:
This is another position when the girl is on top but she is on her feet instead of her knees. Like she's "droppin it low" in the club.

Backwards cowgirl:
Basically just like above but the girl is now facing the males feet.

Legs over the shoulders:
This is a deep penitration position. Bring the girls legs up while she is on her back and put them over your sholders and enter!

Butterfly:
This position, the girl on her back, crosser leggs like indian style and enter. Another deep penitration position.

The bulldog:
This is the NORMAL doggie style. The girl is on her hands and knees and the guy enters.

Doggie style 1:
The girl is on her knees but her stomach is on the bed/floor where ever lol and her ass is in the air.

Doggie style 2: advanced
The girl is in a push up position. You are standing up behind her and she wraps her leggs around you and you hold them.

Kneeling 69: advanced
The guy is kneeling and the girl is upside down. Please try if you are strong. You are basically doing this on the floor.

I have tons-o-more positions in my kinky little mind. But ion wanna give away my moves. Lol but ladies rock your hips in bed PLZ! Don't just lay there and moan... not cute. And guys when we say "DON'T MOVE! YOUR RIGHT THERE" DON'T EFFN MOVE! GOSH! Otherwise... have fun... play... try new things and foreplay is great... ummm next post? Yes I think so...plus who wants to dip there fondue stick into dry chocolate? I wouldn't. Lol

xxoxoo
-tay

niki minaj, lsolo, tma

Sorry didn't get to do a video with kisha! Totaly forgot.
Next time

xoxo
-tay

do you

I know I was supposed to do a sex post today but I have been going threw relationship problems myself.
Relationships are hard to manage. Wheather they are friendly or romantic. I know when I care for someone I care for them more than I should. I had a friend that took advantage of me for 10 years! Had to cut her off... its hard letting someone you care for go... even if you know its an unhealthy relationship.
People take others for granted all the time.
In the end we just need to wory about ourselves and the kids we have [if any] because in the end that's all we have.

xoxo
-tay

ughh

blank and spechless...
never happens... theres a first for everything.

xoxo
-tay

we the west

yaaaay!
ima writer for wethewest.com now. doing the sacramento divison!
i feel like i signed a deal im that excited :)
Already working on the first story

xoxo
-tay

play your position

You keep playing your position, but aren't winning the game

What do you do when this happens? Do you forefit? Keep playing the game but scout out other teams?

There is so much when can do in a situation like this. This is mainly for the single person who is talking to a main person. Waiting for them to make a commitment.

I've had friends who waited for someone for years and it worked out fine. I've had some wait and it not be what they expected.

Basically we gotta think it out and do what our mind tells us to. Sometimes we gotta listen to our head in stead of our hearts. Our hearts get broken to much and could be "speaking" because it needs that quick repair...

Think about it... jordan LOVED basketball... he played it with his heart and mind... but he used his mind and strategies more and became a 6 time champ and the best player ever to his the basketball courts... don't be like master p and taken out the game before the season even starts...

Believe in yourself to make the right decision. Whether it works in the end or does... you'll figure out what to do next game!

xoxo
-tay

eff it

thats how i feel right now!
*middle finger in the air*
its one of them days, whatever you wanna call it.

liar liar pants on fire

why do some people feel the need to lie about everything? i mean i aint finna lie i have lied... but only about shit like bappin my moms car when i was 17 lmao
people will respect you more if you tell the truth. the truth will ALWAYS set you free...
sometimes people tell the truth so much that others think they're bullishhin when really... the truth hurts! we all know that...
i tell the truth no matter how stupid i sound, or how mad someone will be. everything i say behind someones back i say to thier face. some people i have to word it in a nicer way... and most things i dont say to offend anyone, just being truthful.
ive had situations where someone told someone something i said about them and i never said it... this is high school... like for real and is HELLA annoying. im thinking its cause im so truthful that the person staring drama takes that for granted...
but hey... thats life and life is full of LIES!
my point of this all is... stop lying! it makes things so much easier and is less drama in the end

xoxo
-tay

support and compromise

I LOVE when you guys hit me with blog ideas and suggestions... really... you can DM them to me or email me at mzsupasav@gmail.com

This is a DM I received on twitter:
blog idea: being understanding and supportive of da others needs in relationships, ie. compromise.

Compromising and being supportive are BIG key in making a relationship work!
There is a difference in being supportive from sitting there and not saying anything but playing the roll of being supportive.
Us as women most of the time sit there and support our men but when we want to do something we offten get put on the back burner or end up having to give up what we want to do to SUPPORT our men... fellas we can't have this! If your lady wants to do something that you don't agree with but you see that she really wants to do it... COMPROMISE... meet half way... come to a equal medium... ladies we got to do this too. I see this happen a lot in the music industry... a girlfriend or wife does not want their spouse to do a certain show for groupie reasons. Don't bitch about it... met half way... don't go to this show but go to the next one or visa versa... or go for the first half of the show... it shows support and compromise... complaining about anything in a relationship leads to arguements. I'm not saying be submissive to your spouse but compromise... its easier.

Every relationship is 50/50! Nothing more nothing less. We need to support each other to be happy. No one wants to see their spouse fail... right? Being supportive is not being submissive. Sometimes being supportive is taken for granted but if you guys have agreements and have spoke to each other about what your long term goals in life are... it souldnt be that hard to support one another. Especially the person you love!

I hope this helps :)
xoxo
-tay

up in the air

I love writing this blog. I get up every morning and write. Sometimes if the subject is big ill write it over night.
But I'm having some thoughts about it... I don't know what direction to go with this blog. I try to write about everything relationships, love, sex, beauty whatever comes to mind. So far its worked. BUT its likei get the most clicks when its a post on sex.
I want to write about the things that interest people while still keeping my outline on how I would like my blog.
I don't want to write about the samethings over and over...
Guess ima do some re-thinking and get it together

lets talk about sex: oral sex

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meme

Hahaha this is my "meme" hahaha
It sounds dirty to me... maybe my mind is in the gutter...
But "meme" reminds me of "gigi" if you don't know what a "gigi" is... google please. Lol
I have nothing to talk about... lol watchin emril!
I love the cooking shows...
But yeah... ima stop writing this "meme" [lmao] relax for today and get started on my weekly "let's talk about sex" blog for tomorrow *wink wink*

Ewwww emril says "awww yeah babe" when he cooks sounds like he's humpin lol


xoxo
Tay